Empowered Voices

Everyone else was allowed to play victim, I wasn't allowed that luxury. My grown ass male adult uncles got to live with their eighty year old mother when their marriages had ended and life got hard while I had to keep changing myself just to get help from people that used me. Forced to go back to my childhood home that never felt like home. Interrogations, threats, humiliation rituals after all that abuse my mental health was hanging by a thread and everyone expected me to survive. It was a miracle I was still going. My dad telling me the next place I went would be my new start and my oracle cards telling me... it's not what it seems.
Why the fuck did I get nominated to break the ancestral cycles my ancestors weren't strong enough to break and become a leader for the new world?!

You work hard to get your mental health back after years of psychological warfare. I was the healthiest I had ever been and I was finally learning to trust again after dealing with all the narcissism. I had dreams warning me things were not what they seem and without warning I found myself being pushed out of my comfort zone and tossed aside like I was trash. Stabbed in the back and abandoned at a place that felt like prison where I had my rights stripped from me and any human decency erased. Abused and bullied. A mother torn from her child and angry because of the unfair hand life had given me. Moments when it seemed like a door had been opened to be slammed. A dark moment when I found myself debating on killing myself. My dead grandfather and loved ones telling me I wasn't alone and my story was far from over. Divine intervention and walking a path I couldn't see. My faith was being tested.

Being Normal is overrated. Why live a boring human life when you can live life like a superhuman with the ability to manifest just from thought. Remote view the very room the declaration was signed in. Have dreams that warm you that people are going to betray you. Feel spirits and communicate with them. Witness as the divine mess with technology and divinely protect you in every area of your life. Feel people's energy from another timeline. What if the human existence was created with the intention to make you forget how powerful you are as the creator of your reality?

You are god in human form but you only believe you are a mere mortal because those are the experiences you have. Wait until you start to have enough mystical experiences that change the way you see life. Did you know your own government is a lie and you are a powerful creator? I went from homeless terrified and scared to divinely guided to a safe space where everything I had visualized was now being given to me without me asking or looking for it. Being told by a stranger on my tiktok for you page telling me that biscuits would be important, but why? The answer will leave you questioning what you know about human existence. In fact my life is a testimony that things are not what they seem and there is more to this life than you can imagine.What happens when you have no more options and surrender leads to help from an unseen force. My life is wonderland, and I'm Alice. Oh me oh my.

Who do you turn to when the world leaves you alone? I tried to get help from all the sources the world told me would help me. Doors slammed in my face and kicked while I was down. Terrified and afraid as a single woman fighting to find safety.
What if I was trafficked?
What if my body was used and I suffered until I died and my son would never know what happened to his mother?
I just wanted to be safe and get back to him but here I was faced with the consequences of a man child's choices. Twisted sadistic mind games I didn't want to play. Blamed for things I couldn't control. Was this the end of my journey would the world kill me? Was there any hope? My divine team promised I was Divinely Protected but how far did their protection go?

Challenge a narcissist and see where that gets you. I had to go back to my ex malignant narcissistic ex and it was pure hell. I knew I was going into battle and their would be conditions. The people in my world could play victim and throw their fits but every time I expressed my pain I was being blamed, labeled the problem and left for dead. Smear campaign, narcissistic games, men telling me my whole life what I can and can't do with my body and existence. Going through one of the scariest moments of my life and wondering is this what women in Afghanistan go through? Is this how they feel? What is it like to relate to billions of women that have been at the mercy of a world designed by corrupted patriarchal belief systems? I was the lucky one and divine protection was with me the whole time.

It was not the fairy tale I dreamed of and he was not my prince charming. My boyfriend turned out to be another abusive controlling man child that played games. I was on my own doing what it took to survive and play the parts I needed to play but I wanted peace and safety. Life felt heavy. My existence felt like a joke as more and more tested my strength of will and resiliency. What does a woman go through in a world of men?

To survive you will do anything. There is being vulnerable as a human but what if you have never really felt like you belonged in the human realm and you meet someone that seems to understand you? What do you do when you are going through an event normal humans don't go through, experience moments that have you questioning your entire human life? My boyfriend can project an invisible form of himself and we can energetically have sex? Wait the body holds onto trauma and when you do energetic work the body can relive that pain as it releases it? No doctor, no problem the divine will help you heal. Sex dungeon?! Todo I don't think we are in Kansas anymore. This is more like Wonderland!!

Are we really born into a world where those that have been abused are expected to live a "normal life"? I thought that the term family meant something but it actually meant we love you as long as you play the role you have been assigned. While dealing with human problems you are living in an alien world where you have been hugged from behind by a spirit and even had sex! Going from reading paranormal smut romance to having your own personal experience. During the day going on dates with Mormon boys that mommy and dad think are pure but are some really horny mother fuckers. What in the wonderland did I step into?!

Fake friends, betrayal and being kicked out. Moving objects in my room, lights blinking, a potted plant swinging. Did something invisible just touch my face?!?! I'm moving again?!?! Rich asshole with money. Holding my son after a year and half of seeing him on a screen and a strange family reunion. What the fuck happened to the normalcy I once knew? Is this what it's like to go through a spiritual awakening?!